Post by Charles "Dead Eye" James II on Jan 11, 2016 2:21:22 GMT -5
It's been quite a week for Charles "Dead Eye" James. He went from winning one title match and controversially losing a second one to four days in the paradise known as Hawaii with his girlfriend —now fiancée— Karin Jasper. That wasn't the end of the whirlwind as, a week after winning tag gold, the company would close shortly after airing a show. This would prompt him to put in an unexpected phone call to Devlin Scott to front some money on a side project under the NGW banner in his own backyard of Indianapolis.
At the present moment,that was to be set aside. In the jet from Hawaii to California, he'd find himself buried in paperwork with the project. This would continue until the afternoon. Now, he set all that aside to going back to his personal life and to make the engagement official.
•••Point of View: CJ (Dead Eye), First Person•••
It's a pretty cloudy day that is quickly turning "dusk" as I walk into a modest cemetery. I've known from the very first conversation about our future that Karin was adamant about me seeking permission from her father. The difficult part in that was the fact that this cemetery is where her father lies. I'm not exactly sure how I can get this man to give me permission from beyond the grave, but I'll be damned if I'm not going to try. I love this girl more than I do myself, and I will stop at nothing to make sure I do everything in my power to keep her as happy as she has made me.
My palms are sweaty as I walk up to a gravestone that says "Antwon Jamal Jasper" at the head. Why am I so nervous? That thought brings me right back to my last "moment in time"...exactly why I'm in this cemetery right now. I feel like I'm on the outside looking in, like a fly on the wall, if you will. We had just shared fears of losing each other off of little things.
•••Flashback: Point of View, Third Person•••
CJ: “Well, there is one way (to know they won't lose each other), but I don't wanna feel like I'm pressuring you again…”
KJ: “Pressuring me how?
She raises an eyebrow while giving her feet to him one at a time, and he instinctively knows to take off her training shoes.
KJ: “Sorry, I can't have shoes on the couch, even if we don't own it.
Karin laughs as he sets the shoes down and rubs her feet, his eyes shifting a little.
CJ: “You're always so considerate of everything and everybody. I love that. I'm not all proper and set up, but if we're so worried about losing each other for whatever reason…”
He stops rubbing to look at her deeply after tucking some of her hair behind her ear.
CJ: “If we're so worried about losing each other, there's only one way we could really fix that.” *deep breath* “Marry me?”
Her eyes shot open. The sleepy look from her training injury was replaced with surprise. He'd hinted the day before about proposing but stopped just short of it. She sat up for a moment, which surely caused the building anxiety to rise in Charles. She breaks this anxiety when she nods, smiling ear-to-ear.
KJ: “Of course, I'll marry you. I already know you're that special one, the love of my life.”
•••Present Time: Point of View: CJ, First Person•••
My flashback is interrupted by the sounds of birds flying away from a tree after a clap of thunder frightens them. As I kneel down and look upon the burial site, I feel a tear roll down my cheek. To most, this would just be a "final resting place” for a man's "earthly shell". To me, it's almost symbolic. It's definitely a symbol of pain for my fiancée. The pain she has of this great man, that I never got to meet until today, not being able to see the beautiful success she's grown to be while in human form. It feels like a piece of my heart has sunk as I kneel down and say a little prayer.
I can picture a three year-old Karin so happy spending time with him, only to have that taken away by a monster over one mistaken movement. I close my eyes and try to remember that he is undoubtedly watching over her much like my father is of me. Who knows? Perhaps, they are both in heaven hanging out, smiling at what we've become. The thoughts make me smile as I open my ears, my heart still beating out of my chest. I look down at the gravestone ready to have my first conversation with the man that should be my future father-in-law.
“I don't know why I'm so nervous. Well, yes, I do. I think we both know why I'm here. I just wish we'd be doing it face-to-face some kind of way.”
I take a deep breath, trying to absorb the loss. I didn't get the opportunity to meet him, but those memories that Karin has, that twinkle in her eyes that sparks her smile to widen…it hurts me to know those are but mere fragments in what should be an unlimited number of those moments in her life.
“I know you don't know me, per se, but I want you to know that your daughter makes me the happiest person in the world, and she loves you and misses you daily. That said, I want you to know that you have my word from right here…” *taps his chest* “...that every day I will love and protect her just the way I know you would if you were here. I don't know how all this is supposed to work. To be completely honest with you, I never expected myself to be in love with someone, but our Karin...she changed that. She's changed me so much, and I hope you're proud of your little girl. So, I hope that you can see me as the kind of man that's worthy of taking her hand in marriage and ensuring she's my number one priority until that day when one of us ceases to breathe.”
I close my eyes as I'm overcome with emotion. I kneel completely down with my hands on my lap as I think about this future and just how much my life has changed since meeting Karin. I can't imagine what life would be like, nor do I want to. I try to regain my composure and figure out if there is anything else that can be said. As if it were on-cue, for the first time since the clouds began to form, sunlight peeks its way through a couple of clouds. It almost feels like divine intervention as that small beam seems like its sole aim is right in front of me. I look up just as the sun ducks behind the clouds. I guess I have been given my sign.
{Scene closed.}
At the present moment,that was to be set aside. In the jet from Hawaii to California, he'd find himself buried in paperwork with the project. This would continue until the afternoon. Now, he set all that aside to going back to his personal life and to make the engagement official.
•••Point of View: CJ (Dead Eye), First Person•••
It's a pretty cloudy day that is quickly turning "dusk" as I walk into a modest cemetery. I've known from the very first conversation about our future that Karin was adamant about me seeking permission from her father. The difficult part in that was the fact that this cemetery is where her father lies. I'm not exactly sure how I can get this man to give me permission from beyond the grave, but I'll be damned if I'm not going to try. I love this girl more than I do myself, and I will stop at nothing to make sure I do everything in my power to keep her as happy as she has made me.
My palms are sweaty as I walk up to a gravestone that says "Antwon Jamal Jasper" at the head. Why am I so nervous? That thought brings me right back to my last "moment in time"...exactly why I'm in this cemetery right now. I feel like I'm on the outside looking in, like a fly on the wall, if you will. We had just shared fears of losing each other off of little things.
•••Flashback: Point of View, Third Person•••
CJ: “Well, there is one way (to know they won't lose each other), but I don't wanna feel like I'm pressuring you again…”
KJ: “Pressuring me how?
She raises an eyebrow while giving her feet to him one at a time, and he instinctively knows to take off her training shoes.
KJ: “Sorry, I can't have shoes on the couch, even if we don't own it.
Karin laughs as he sets the shoes down and rubs her feet, his eyes shifting a little.
CJ: “You're always so considerate of everything and everybody. I love that. I'm not all proper and set up, but if we're so worried about losing each other for whatever reason…”
He stops rubbing to look at her deeply after tucking some of her hair behind her ear.
CJ: “If we're so worried about losing each other, there's only one way we could really fix that.” *deep breath* “Marry me?”
Her eyes shot open. The sleepy look from her training injury was replaced with surprise. He'd hinted the day before about proposing but stopped just short of it. She sat up for a moment, which surely caused the building anxiety to rise in Charles. She breaks this anxiety when she nods, smiling ear-to-ear.
KJ: “Of course, I'll marry you. I already know you're that special one, the love of my life.”
•••Present Time: Point of View: CJ, First Person•••
My flashback is interrupted by the sounds of birds flying away from a tree after a clap of thunder frightens them. As I kneel down and look upon the burial site, I feel a tear roll down my cheek. To most, this would just be a "final resting place” for a man's "earthly shell". To me, it's almost symbolic. It's definitely a symbol of pain for my fiancée. The pain she has of this great man, that I never got to meet until today, not being able to see the beautiful success she's grown to be while in human form. It feels like a piece of my heart has sunk as I kneel down and say a little prayer.
I can picture a three year-old Karin so happy spending time with him, only to have that taken away by a monster over one mistaken movement. I close my eyes and try to remember that he is undoubtedly watching over her much like my father is of me. Who knows? Perhaps, they are both in heaven hanging out, smiling at what we've become. The thoughts make me smile as I open my ears, my heart still beating out of my chest. I look down at the gravestone ready to have my first conversation with the man that should be my future father-in-law.
“I don't know why I'm so nervous. Well, yes, I do. I think we both know why I'm here. I just wish we'd be doing it face-to-face some kind of way.”
I take a deep breath, trying to absorb the loss. I didn't get the opportunity to meet him, but those memories that Karin has, that twinkle in her eyes that sparks her smile to widen…it hurts me to know those are but mere fragments in what should be an unlimited number of those moments in her life.
“I know you don't know me, per se, but I want you to know that your daughter makes me the happiest person in the world, and she loves you and misses you daily. That said, I want you to know that you have my word from right here…” *taps his chest* “...that every day I will love and protect her just the way I know you would if you were here. I don't know how all this is supposed to work. To be completely honest with you, I never expected myself to be in love with someone, but our Karin...she changed that. She's changed me so much, and I hope you're proud of your little girl. So, I hope that you can see me as the kind of man that's worthy of taking her hand in marriage and ensuring she's my number one priority until that day when one of us ceases to breathe.”
I close my eyes as I'm overcome with emotion. I kneel completely down with my hands on my lap as I think about this future and just how much my life has changed since meeting Karin. I can't imagine what life would be like, nor do I want to. I try to regain my composure and figure out if there is anything else that can be said. As if it were on-cue, for the first time since the clouds began to form, sunlight peeks its way through a couple of clouds. It almost feels like divine intervention as that small beam seems like its sole aim is right in front of me. I look up just as the sun ducks behind the clouds. I guess I have been given my sign.
{Scene closed.}